A conversation with my paternal grandfather last night triggered talks with Judith and Nancy this morning that all support my process of grieving; grieving necessary to move forward. No dodging or weaving, just breathing and singing and crying.
Perhaps like some of you I have not given myself time and energy to fully grieve all of those who have moved on from this life. And as my mother ages, inevitably to leave us one day, I am grateful to my grandfather for telling me to grieve her leaving before she passes. And so I will, breathing to create space for this process before the end of this day.
This seems a great time to review what we've been told about the courageous journey we take in this experience called human.
Many years ago, a group calling themselves Zarathustrians arrived at a workshop I was leading in Hayward, Wisconsin. They were wearing hooded robes and did not reveal their faces. They said we were a curiosity to them. Their messages came as if from computers, without emotion. And as they walked around the room, they peered in to our faces and observed closely.
They said Earth is a grand experiment in the Cosmos; a gathering of elements from many cosmic locations to combine physical, mental - and for the first time - emotional qualities in one species. Like courageous explorers we accepted this assignment to learn and expand consciousness with all three elements combined. These Zarathustrians are composed of the physical and mental, but without the emotional. And they observe our experience with much fascination and respect.
Is it any wonder that we feel often that we are in a foreign land without a language when delving into our feelings? Like Lewis and Clark we approach a new landscape and hesitate, or dodge and weave, before proceeding into unknown territory. And yet the dimensions of discovery are of a magnitude we can hardly grasp. We grow immensely as we dare to step forward and feel everything our emotional system has to reveal about us.
Breathing and Exploring with all of you, until next time,
Phyllis
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