From One Breath to the Next

Hello Again!

At any given time, from this moment to the next, we are unable to account for the amount of energy it is taking for us just to maintain.

I had a reasonable amount of uninterrupted sleep last night, got up, did my laundry, posted to this blog and at 11:00 knew I needed one of my meditation naps.  I slept hard until 1:00.  My usual meditation nap is 20-30 minutes.  My dreams were insightful and thought-provoking.  I was grateful to wake in time for my 1:30 appointment and have been reflecting on my day.  Both that lovely person and my client at 4:00 are particularly courageous people; willing to ask the questions, staying with the program while the responses challenge them.

Are we now sleeping in advance of the work we have yet to tackle?  I think so.  In fact, the response is this: 

"You will find, in the perfect rhythm of your new lives, that resting periods will come as you need them, before you are challenged by your exertions, as well as following the experience.  In other words, time means less and less as you move forward in this new cycle of your Earth lives. Allowing yourselves to follow your inner compass, you will rest and rise, eat and fast, work and relax all according to that inner Wisdom.  It works for you.  You do not work at achieving it.  And so it is."

And that is enough for my System for this fine day when here in Minneapolis on March 16, 2012, the temps reached 80 degrees.

Oh, my.  No complaints here.  

Until next time,

I am Phyllis, Becoming

Life Renewed

Good Morning!


On this fine, warm March morning in Minnesota - 50 degrees at 6 a.m.! - I'm reviewing the past few weeks with wonder and gratitude.


My daughter's "closest family member," her dog, 'Tana, passed quite suddenly, leaving Paige devastated.  While I wondered at her sanity a couple of years ago when she adopted two feral cats, I am now so grateful that she can enjoy their sweet and mischievous friendship.  While they can't fill the void 'Tana leaves, they are a comfort.


Montana was a squirrely and awesome dog.  We didn't see one another often, but she talked to me on the phone, sang me happy birthday and happily accepted the surrogate ear scrubs I sent her way.  I love her, too, and miss her, but she's not far away.  She has visited twice to let me know that we remain connected.  She is with Paige, reminding her that love is infinite, that life continues, not only in some nebulous far-off dimension, but close and real and breathing in a renewed state of being.


The same message has come often from folks who find their departed dog sleeping next to them, breathing, the pressure of their body reminding their humans that love is forever, the life force vibrant and exceeding our perceived separation.


Our animals are perfect partners in this amazing mosaic.  Whether a dog or cat or some other furry or feathered friend, they take the journey with us, mirroring our own identity and teaching us love.


Leaving, they also leave the door open for us to discover ourselves in some new dimension of our personal creation.  So often, following the death of a dear friend, we realize that options beckon, that a new self emerges from the emptiness.


The cycles of life inform us.  The emergent new form may inspire us when we can breathe and allow its wisdom to fill the void.  We are entitled to the time we need to grieve - and to the gifts we inherit.  It was always the Plan.


Breathing into the new,
I am Phyllis, Becoming

AWAKE!

Greetings!


Are you watching Awake on NBC Thursday nights?  Oh, my, what a quality television experience and a mind-bender, without being a mental quagmire.  


It's got me pondering our realities, so yesterday I asked whether  things like the stars/zodiac override our free will, or to what degree they are accurate.


The response was, "Insofar as you live within the karmic pattern, they do, and it is always your choice."  I felt myself traveling out into Creation to feel myself outside the karmic pattern.  I love it out there.


We know from earlier guidance that karma has expired.  Born into it, we are still living through the pattern, but it is no longer our evolutionary theme.  Each future generation will live progressively less under the influence of karma.  Remember, karma is not bad, it is simply cumulative cause and effect.  Examples are horoscopes, tarot and psychic predictions, which are all part of the karmic pattern.


I hold in great esteem those who provide us information that guides us.  As long as we use the guidance as a part of our free will, not a replacement for it, it can enhance our lives.  Increasingly trusting ourselves in any moment is our goal.


All of this means we need to breathe into our choices, sorting out what our Wisdom indicates and whether we are surrendering our free will for a temporary feel-good fix; a bandaid that will inevitably fall off, leaving us wondering why we've returned to the starting line.


I realize that none of this may be news to you.  At the same time, we are evolving and sensing our lives differently, so it was time for me to review, and maybe for you, too.  


Breathing into new realities,
I am Phyllis/Phyl-El

Goals, not Structures

Hello, again!


Still locating myself here at home after a wonderful Sunday with my church family in Duluth.  Yesterday I heard, "Goals, not structures," and it set me to feeling into, again, the way I have been learning to live my life recently.


I've written here about this before, so I won't go into all the layers, but it must be worth more attention or I would not have heard it so clearly. 


I'll use my weight loss history as an example because it comes up so clearly as an experience that fits this:  Since I was 11 and feeling too "big," I've obsessed about my weight.  And whenever I've set about losing weight, I've set a mental goal and then programmed myself, structured my patterns, to insure I lost the pounds as quickly as possible.  It made sense then.  But not now.


I learned more about healthy weight loss during the time I lectured Weight Watchers classes for 7 years, but still I structured my eating habits and exercise to fit a schedule that would bring me as quickly to my goal as I could manage.  Every weight loss program I have ever known is based on these structures.  They do not teach us to trust ourselves first.


Since beginning my new program of exercise and weight loss in October, I realize that the patterns of living my life intuitively can work for this as well.  Letting go of the old structures, though, is certainly a learning curve I've never traveled before.  


My goal this time around, at age 70, is to become a strong old woman.  I do not feel old now, but given my genes I probably can expect a long life if I become strong and healthier.  


Setting this goal, I find myself growing stronger intuitively as well. I honor what my Internal Physician tells me to do about my heart, not taking medications but instead trusting my Wisdom to inform me what serves me better.  Hand in hand with that, I find my I.P. telling me what and when to eat as well; when to work out and for how long.  Listening, I am surrendering to that wise inner voice that knows exactly what rhythm works best for me.  


It means, sometimes, breaking old rules and breathing to allow myself that freedom.  Is my System asking for a nap?  No rules.  Hungry? Breathing, an action is a response, not a reaction. Most often I observe myself, curious about this process, and celebrating that whatever the rhythm, I will meet my goals.  Breathing, I will achieve strength and fitness.


These principles can work, whatever goals you set for yourself and bring you the ease I am beginning to really enjoy these days.  Our Wisdom will always carry us along as we allow it.  We have not been taught to trust that Wisdom, but it is infallible.  Yes, it is.  It is up to each of us to practice the surrender to enjoy it.


Breathing & Knowing with you,
I am Phyllis/PhylEl

Hi, There! God Here.

Good Day!


What lovely responses some of you have offered after my last post here.  I am so excited that as we share ideas about anything, we expand Consciousness and fulfill our purpose for being here.


Speaking of God....


In the first few months after the channeling started in 1983 so much unfolded that it's a wonder we didn't explode or lose our minds.  Goes to show just how much we can manage when inspired.  When we're so hungry for Spirit it's much like gorging on a food your system needs most.  It's delicious, and we can't seem to get enough.


One night in late 1983, walking through the hallway of my home in Bemidji, MN, I found myself standing there, suddenly there, disoriented, following a trip I didn't know anyone could take.  I had shot out of my body and into the center of what I now call The All That Is, or the Mind of God.  I had a memory of the absence of ANY thing.  I said later, that to call it perfection demeaned it, minimized it.  Nothing I could say describes it, even now.  Coming back from it, I was changed.  I was euphoric, remembering the Source from which we all come.


You've heard the term, "baby Christian," well I was a baby psychic/parapsychologist.   I knew nothing, and I suppose that knowing nothing, expecting nothing, is the very best place to be to have the most profound experiences.  These days I am able to surrender to that level of NoThing, but in those days I was so unschooled that speaking with Masters, traveling out of body, moving between dimensions was all so thrilling, yet accepted in naivete what I thought was expected of me.


The trip had just begun, I know now, and I needed the internal shift, the knowing, to support me throughout.  We all need to know within that what is contained in our journey is worth the risks, the sacrifices - and that the joy, the reward will inevitably come.
We need to know that the purpose is more than we can know.  Literally, more than we can know, yet supported by an internal magnetic compass.  And we don't have to wonder if we have it.  Being on the path of discovery is all the evidence we need.  Indeed, being there, we have the compass. The journey cannot begin without it.


I am recalling that trip as now I strike up a conversation with God that was always there waiting for me, just as my out-of-body event was always there, waiting until I was ready.  I am comforted and thrilled, challenged and engaged.  I am grateful.


From the sublime to the mundane.  Yes, the laundry is calling. Bless my laundry room, right across the hall.  God's blessings are incalculable.  They await us, in our perfectly devised Plan, until we are ready to accept them.  In the simplicity of faith, recalling The All That Is, with gratitude, we soar!


Breathing with you,
I am Phyllis, still Becoming

Speaking of God....

Greetings, Everyone!

Just when you think (!) you know what you know...

Last week, just after having channeled A. Michael here, I was driving and heard a very strong, clear voice say, "Phyllis, you are still counting."  The reference, of course, to my intention to cease keeping a mental ledger.  This for that, bills balanced with money, etc.  And then, after some conversation, heard, "I am paying your bills."  

Now, that's a strange comment from A. Michael, right?  So I kept up a running conversation, with gratitude, for the reminders, and only the next day realized this was not Michael, this was God.

I've stated in this blog that I've realized my true vocation is to learn God and to share that wisdom with any who are also searching.  In other words, I got myself into this quandary - and this wondrous discovery.  

I speak to "God," every day, thankful for the inspiration and counsel.  I speak to Mother Earth in the same way, with gratitude for the day, for the support, the nourishment.  But all along I have held that "God" is/was an indistinct concept, a body of Consciousness but NOT an actual being.   

I have held that God is not male and female.  We are born of the masculine Creator and the feminine Earth, just as we are conceived and born of a physical mother and father to this life, so we are born with all the genetic qualities of our Creator, containing and recalling as much of God as we can understand.  

With this voice, so strong and distinct, my perceived world fell away and I spent about 30 hours in a depression.  Losing what you believed was true is like losing an old friend.  Who am I?  What does this mean to the world I thought I knew?

I could not deny that the voice was concrete, personal, vivid.

The epiphany I experienced brings me to a new relationship with God, the personality, the voice, the being who is now as real to me as Christ, who is God, but not more than you and I are God; as Archangel Michael; as our friend, Barbara; as real as my human father who passed in 1955.  

We, in this physical dimension, are incapable of comprehending God in his totality, but I am happy to have released my doubts.  I can accept what is so real to me and release what is beyond my knowing.  In the first rush of recall to what I believe we know when we are born, I realized I want to be ordained again.  I feel the need to renew vows to this relationship.

Ah, we are all becoming, and for that I am grateful.  How bored would we be if we just stopped and thought we had all the answers. I will ask for more counsel about what I can understand, and I thank God for both the questions and the mystery.

Breathing into the mystery,

I am Phyllis, still Becoming

Yes, Michael!

Greetings!


No explanation for my absence from this blog is engaging enough to relate here.  Suffice to say that life has kept me either very involved, or inert, as a virus is apt to do.  I've sure learned a lot and am grateful to my Internal Physician for informing and reforming me.  


This morning I've realized that not only is Archangel Michael present today, but I saw his hands reach out to begin typing on my laptop!  He must have something to say, so here goes:


"Talented people all over the planet are reporting extra-terrestrial activity and the influence of these beings on people and the planet.  These reports are largely incorrect and I am here to clarify.  I do not doubt their good intentions, but for the most part people report from their own Consciousness, thereby reflecting what they perceive to be truths important to the well being of others.  Seek not to define yourselves by the perceptions of others, from whatever source.  Define who you are by trusting what you've been given in your creation; the Wisdom that is yours and yours alone. It is precious and unique.


  "Earth is autonomous.  Earth is independent of any external influences.  It stands alone in an experience of life that is uncommon and independent.  It must be this way for the experience to remain authentic.  Any external influence would compromise the authenticity of this extraordinary creation.


   "To illustrate, think of it this way.  You are born with free will and must learn to live independent of your parents and other authorities, even while being influenced and guided by others in authority.  Your growth depends on your independent thought and action.  A policeman may stop you for an infraction as you are driving and would not accept your placing blame on any other person, no matter what the circumstance.  You are the driver, all the guideposts are present and you are the final authority behind the wheel of that vehicle.


   "You do not live alone.  You share information from any number of sources, but you are the only real authority in creating your life.  Nothing prevails from outside of yourself.  Influences exist but they do not rule, and any attempt on their part to alter your exercise of free will is unacceptable in the eyes of Creation.


   "So it is with Earth.  You all arrive on Earth to achieve an expanded state of experience.  You are learning yourselves as best you can.  You are expanding Consciousness.  And you must do it by virtue of independent action.  Bending to the will of an extra-terrestrial influence would so upset the balance of Earth's evolution that it could collapse on itself.


   "Each of you is here with your own contract and assignments.  You come in influenced by the extra-dimensional source that created your original form.  Thus, each of you is here with a unique perspective.  One way to think about this is to imagine that from twelve unique locations in the Cosmos a segment of that Consciousness took assignment to relocate to this planet.  Think of them as twelve tribes, each with its own perspective.  All gather on Earth and create in their diversity a balance through which this Earth experience evolves.  Each is essential to the balance.  Together they/you create a whole that explores, for the first time anywhere, the complex combination of mental, emotional and physical elements.  Yes, the "spiritual" also combines with these, but that is not the point I am now making.  


   "So each of you carries an aspect of Consciousness born of your origins in the Cosmic plan, but you do so with theWisdom that you must carry the responsibility independent of those sources.  You cannot go home to Mom and Dad.  You must pay your own bills and grow the best way you can.  You can call them, you can seek counsel, you can benefit from their wisdom, but you must remain independent. The grand experiment called Earth is not going to fail.  You can walk taller and proud of your independent accomplishments.  Source will never ask you to bend to its will.  It created you to learn to walk alone.  It created you to learn to trust yourself; not your ego, but your Spirit.


   "Today I am also here to tell you how well you are doing in this regard.  You are, more and more, trusting your Wisdom instead of your logic and emotion.  You are learning how satisfying it is to lean into that Wisdom and to enjoy the expansive benefits of doing so.


    "Nearly three years ago I told you that you were entering a three-year cycle of trying on for size the newly realized creational energy of Earth.  By your summer solstice this year you will have completed this experience.  So many of you are enjoying the fruits of this cycle, and your future is brighter because you dared to exercise new skills in this expansive evolutionary period.  


    "The month of March is a pressurized timeline.  You will see it in unusual weather patterns.  Science will be amazed at what occurs.  I will not prognosticate about exact events.  I will say to you that as you surrender to Wisdom, you will handle your situations beautifully.  Yes, that means breathing, deeply and often, to relax reactions.  As you approach the middle of June, you may want to celebrate what you have survived and how humanity has proven itself, once again.  Growth.  More growth.


   "Trust yourselves.  Exactly as you are.  You are succeeding.  I offer you this counsel not to influence your will, but to support your independence, to encourage you.  Our respect for you is limitless."


In gratitude, 
I am Phyllis, breathing with each of you